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10 December, 2003 * 1:35 pm Today is one of those days where it's painfully clear that although I desperately want to change some things about my life, I've done virtually NOTHING to accomplish those changes. Yet, I continue to bitch and gripe and wallow in my unwanted state. It's true that in the last year I've had to deal with a ridiculous amount of change, and though the changes have been overwhelmingly positive, it's still been stressful. Moving to a new city, moving in with a new roommate (a boy no less), getting a new job, going into a new industry, getting engaged, planning a wedding, and evaluating my spiritual beliefs were the biggies this past year threw at me. I've been telling myself I haven't been attempting to make these new, desired changes simply because... I need a break from changes of any kind for a while, and I think that's completely valid and understandable. However, at some point, I've gotta just suck it up and get going, and so far I'm having trouble getting motivated to do that. Part of my hesitancy, I'm sure, is simply because it's scary. Also, I'm not sure where to start, or how to start for that matter. It makes me feel defeated before I even try which only perpetuates my non-motivation. I guess at some point I've just gotta just jump in with both feet and see what happens because the longer I let this linger without doing something about it, the worse it feels. Due Date: Yesterday - 07 May, 2007 Misery - 30 April, 2007 An Unlikely Pairing. - 18 April, 2007 And the Beat Goes on - 16 April, 2007 � design by near-sighted 2002 |